Well, I'm off to sleep... generally 11:30 is not a bad time. Actually, it is pretty good considering the times I have been sleping. I need to get up at 4:30 for the train so I can get over to Ronkonkoma, catch the shuttle to Islip, and...

get the plane to Baltimore. Then I will give the teaching my all. The kids constantly hear about how the impoverished are doomed, how they can never learn. I think of my own life story and laugh in those narrowminded people's faces... however, unfortunately some of the students buy the notion, and use it as an excuse to not do anything. I have them young, so can try to change that by building a work ethic young!I don't want them to believe the lie. I hope I can do something meaningful in these kids' lives.

One thing that bothers me- the fact that I have already been hearing a plethora of disparaging remarks about Baltimore. I will reserve judgment until I encounter the area for myself. Yes, I read about news and social issues, and many of the very same issues exist in my hometown!

Besides, if my dream happens and I instate some change... it still outrages me when people say the poor can't handle school! I was the lowest of the low on the social ladder, and look at me! Did I fail? No! I went to collge, graduated college, and got picked for TfA! So much for being a hopeless case...

A new life? Here's hoping.

But Bethany, though of course you are not going to actually read this,I promise you this- I will never, EVER turn my back on you, even if you try to evade talking to me most of the time. I love you too much for that.

I hope she has not skipped any more of her rehearsals... her mother berated her for it very badly the other day. Doesn't she see how odd it is that her daughter would skip a rehearsal just to lay listlessly on the sofa? She yells at her for smoking and drinking instead of trying to see how Bethany is, as a person- and her college friends, in my opinion, are 99% scum.